the voice within...

im so tired...

is it really so difficult out here...

everyday im struggling...

juggling family... studies... relationship... friendship... inter-personal relationship...

all these are wearing me down...

i find it so hard to maintain a balance...

when i focus too much on my studies... i neglect my relationship...

focus too much on relationship and i neglect friendship...

focus too much on friendship and my studies get affected...



im so tired of this lifestyle...

for the past few months... doubts clouded my mind...

is it worth it...?

this question had been appearing...

more and more frequently...



contemplating suicide is no longer a stranger to me...

many a times the thought crossed my mind...

but the fear proved a hurdle...

the thought of leaving my loved ones behind gave me 2nd thoughts...

the unfillial act of disappointing my family again convinced me to drop the idea...

but how long will it be the fear... the thoughts become secondary...?

i dunno...

but time will tell...



i miss home... so much... so much...

never in my life have i miss home so much...

seems like for the past 20 odd years i have taken my home and family for granted...

home to me back then was just a shelter over my head...

i was wrong...

there is a deeper meaning to the 4 letters... H O M E...



i have so many thoughts in my mind... too many to mention...

jasmine have been telling me to take life easy...

go easy on myself and not to push myself too hard... over the limits...

i really appreciate it... she is always there when im down...

i thank u for all u have done...