life's never a smooth sailing journey...

heaven hasnt been nice to me recently...

unhappy events just kept happening...

just to list a few...

1) ah ma hospitalized...

2) the failed relationship...

3) the unhappiness @ work...

4) flu + cough + occasionally fever + on off on off headaches...


1 --->
ah ma been hospitalized for days... though she is doin well... but this is a showing sign that she is aging...

im just so worried about her... who's gonna be around to take care of her and the family...? papa & uncle are not feeling ok either...

dajie going to shanghai for 6 months... erjie always tighted down with busy worl schedule... brother moving out soon... im going off in 3 weeks time...

if something were to happen who's gonna be around to handle it...


2 --->
kelly and me are not longer together... though the pain doesnt hurt as much now... but it still pinches at times...

though i didnt mention anything about this to the family.. but i guess the family knows more or little about it...

as usual.. the finger always points to me when something is wrong... no1 bothers to listen to the story... or at least my story...

i reckon it doesnt matters to them... afterall a failed relationship is a failed relationship...


3 --->
work wasnt pleasant at times... guess this is the reality of working in the society...

director says gimme a chance... architect says dun waste time... wtf...

ppl busy with project... i help... i OT with them...

i busy with project... they see.... i OT alone...

best part... the director never comes to me before 6...

wtf again...


4 --->
cough + flu + fever + headache makes a good combination in a bad sense...

3 weeks and still havnt recover...

guess my immune system is screwed.. just like the host...

i... i'm... done for...

crap...



if there is a god... please grant me the strength to fight on...

if there is a satan... i'll gladly trade my soul for evil powers...