to stay or not to stay...

to stay or not to stay...

this issue has been bugging me for a while...

i kinda enjoy the life im having now..

the independence, the freedom etc...



it's so different from the life i used to lead in singapore...

life in singapore is so sheltered... so pampered... so protected...

i dun like it anymore...



here in australia...

i learnt how to take care of myself...

prep my own meals... pay my bills... maintain the house etc...

it's a whole new experience...



during my 3 years stay in australia...

i have learnt about many things in life...

i became more receptive of opinions...

i became more liberal about social issues...

my perception of the world widens a lot...



my perspective of life changed...



but of course there are many implications regarding my decision...

for which, family takes the priority...

ah ma already in her 80s...

pa and ma in their early 60s and late 50s...

and there is this fear of drifting family ties with my family...



secondly, there is the relationship and friends...

everyone is here... gf and friends...

they were the ppl that stuck with me through my hard times...

i dun wanna lose this bond between us...



i need to make a decision...

and i need to decide soon...

cause time is a luxury i dun have...



i wish i can have the answer tomorrow when i wake up...

:(