utterly sad... utterly disappointed...

im surprised and shocked how much she has changed into a totally different person...

she wasnt like this when we first met...

i dunno if is it the hurt i have inflicted on her that caused her to change...

or the circumstances and situations around her...



i called earlier and this guy answered in hokkien and the background was very noisy...

absolutely uncouth...

totally rude...

i cant imagine the friends she is mixing with now...

and the place she goes to these days...



this incident has convinced me she is no longer the girl i once knew...

or the girl i once loved...

for the girl i once knew and loved is no longer around...



i will be strong....

i will endure the pain...

i will walk out of this shadow....

into the light...



i am utterly sad....

i am utterly disappointed...