i can't breathe anymore...

i feel so terrible inside...

the pain and agony are totally unbearable...

but yet i have to act as if everything is ok...

this mask is so heavy... it's weighing me down...

i can't breathe behind this mask...



i feel so stressed by work...

i hardly have enuff sleep...

everytime i close my eyes...

i get tramutised by nitemares...



the fear of losing... the fear of failing... the fear of not doing well...

along with the help of drugs and pills...

kept me going...



for every second...

the effects from the drugs and pills kept me going...

my body is damaged...

i know the side effects...

i know the harm...

i know the damage...

but using them to keep me awake and relief the pain is the only way...

the only way for me to compete against time...



i know i will fall 1 day eventually...

and time will overtake me...

leaving me behind...

alone...

again...