.....

heartache...

headache...

bad misunderstanding...

bad frens...

bad intepretation...

problems... problems... problems...

never seem to stop...

job hunter - not successful...

relationship - not healthy...

frenship - strained...

privacy - intruded...

trust - betrayed...


y people always like to interfere in my life and FUCKED IT UP...

fuck u all....

you are not me...

u all thought u all know...

but in fact... u all dunno how i think n how i feel...

so dun assume...

:(

hurts...

pain...

bleed...

. . . . .

heartache...

leg pain...

arm sprained...

bad day bad day bad day...

wretched life...

陶喆 - 黑色幽默

陶喆 - 黑色幽默

難過 是因為悶了很久...
是因為想了太多 是心理起了作用...

你說 苦笑常常陪著你...
在一起有點勉強 該不該現在休了我...

不想太多 我想一定是我 聽錯弄錯搞錯...
拜託 我想是你的腦袋有問題...

隨便說說 其實我早已經猜透...
看透不想多說 只是我怕眼淚撐不住...

不懂 你的黑色幽默 想通 卻又再考倒我...
說散 你想很久了吧 我不想拆穿你...
當作 是你開的玩笑 想通 卻又再考倒我...
說散 你想很久了吧 敗給你的黑色幽默...
我的認真敗給黑色幽默...

. . . . .

seeking solace...

cant even have a moment of peace...

it's been 2 days...

the argument goes on...



what the fuck are you all arguing about money for...?

feeling lousy...

fucking sianz...

fucking moody...

fucking losed...

fucking confused...

i hate this fucking feelings...



fucking noisy...

cant even have a moment of peace...

bloody fuck...

relationship....

sometimes i hate being in a relationship...

i hate the feeling of worrying for someone...

the anxiety and stuff...

yah...

it's part of the deal...

but fuck... i dun like this part of the deal...

i think i should think twice before going into a relationship...

fuck u all...

i so fucking sick of this...

life is just so fucked up...



family dun understand how i feel...

friends dun care how i feel...

gf dun bother how i feel...



every1 expects me to understand them...

who the fuck bothers to understand me...

NOBODY...

NOBODY FUCKING CARES...



i escape from this dark memories...

i escape to australia...

but u all still wouldnt let me off...

u all still bring my haunted past to australia to haunt me...



i came back from holidays...

you all cast the dark shadows over me...

i avoided... i run...

still the shadows caught up...



y cant u all just let me go...

let me lead my life the way i want...

life's a bitch...

life's a bitch...

kaypoh friends...

insensitive friends...

gossipy friends...

makes it even worst...



FUCK YOU ALL...

may you all die a FUCKING HORRIBLE DEATH...

bangkok trip (9-11-05 - 14-11-05)

6 days holiday with alicia was fantastic...

went sight seeing... shopping... makaning... see see look look-ing...

the roadside food stalls were great...

the roti roti was great...

the BBQ pork was fantastic...

everything was just simply great...

tired... fricking tired...

moving house is a fricking tired thing...

esp when 1 housemate is doing her work...

the other MIA...