holiday...

im going GOLD COAST...!!!

muahahahahahahah~~~

lonely...

i feel so lonely here...

the feeling just gets stronger every minute...

:(

tired and lost...

fucking holidays now...

still gonna do work...

fucking tired...

so tired of pushing myself...

dun even know what the fuck it's for...

who do i really wanna do in the future...



hmm...

feel so lost right now... :(

battle...

me vs my inner self...

ALL for NOTHING...

fucking waste my time...

end up with NOTHING...

it's ALL for NOTHING...

fuck

death...

death occured in the family today...

wally, had to be put to sleep due to some sickness...

it was a heart wrenching moment for both XL and me...

as we watched life seeped away from Wally...



life is so fragile...

the most hurtful thing in life is...

the most hurtful thing in life is...
you envisioned so much...

but there is only this much you can do...

and this far you can go...

tired...

im so tired from pushing myself...

the end results are crappy...

aint the leat bit satisfied...

i wish i can just drop everything and relax...



the holidays seems so near yet so far...

i wanna sleep...

i wanna eat...

i wanna go on a tour...

i wanna enjoy myself this holidays...



hasnt been eating and sleeping well...

i hope i can recuperate enuff for the next sem...

not too sure if i can take it..



tired...

六月的天空...

是片黑暗...

06-06-06

it's not a bad day today although today is dated o6-o6-o6...

supposed it's the number of the beast but fuck...

it's a rather good day for me...

1) i didnt wake up late... not too late at least...

2) i managed to get quite a fair bit of work done...

3) She msged me... which really surprised me...

4) i found many games which i used to play when i was little...

5) it's a cooling day.. and the weather didnt piss me off...

:D

final year = less stress...?

many have told me fifth year is easy....

a lot easier than 4th....

consider the fact that we are doing just 1 project in a year...

as compared to 2 in 4th...

which means twice the amt of time to do the work...



but for some unknown reasons....

im feeling much more stressed now than i am in 4th year...



it's killing me..

and causing me sleepless nites...

:(

sick + tired + unfocus...

i feel feverish...

i feel lethagic...

i cant focus...

:( for each..

I...

I AM: me...

I WANT: people around me to be happy... esp my family...

I WISH: i can be a better person... in all aspects...

I HATE: hypocrisy

I MISS: my family...

I FEAR: of failures...

I HEAR: compliments... gossips... scandals... tat are uncompletely untrue...

I WONDER: if i die tomolo... wat's gonna happen to my family...

I REGRET: for not being the fillial son that i should be...

I AM NOT: what you all think of me...

I DANCE: when im drunk...

I SING: when im happy...

I CRY: when my emotions get me...

I AM NOT ALWAYS: happy like u all perceived me to be...

I AM CONFUSED: whenever i come to a cross road in life...

I NEED: a listening ear... a place to pen my thoughts... a channel to vent my frustrations...

I SHOULD: try and be a better person...

I LOVE: my family although i have never told them verbally...

I REMEMBER: many things... although many a times i chose to act ignorant...

bad luck streak...

a series of unfortunate events...

wtf....

4

4th consecutive nite...

3...

insomnia...

third consecutive night..

mr nice vs mr evil...

you know the difference between the nice guys and the evil ones...

it's in the life span...

most nice guys dun live to see another day...

whereas the evil ones live to see the nice ones die everyday...



so whose side are you on...?

solution...?

yah...

i think i found the solution...

selfish but ya...