i miss her

i miss her so much...

i still cant get over her although it's been 8 months...

i still surf her profile...

check her status...

find out about her life...



i miss her so much....

i wanna forget her...

but i cant bear to let go of her...

i have never miss someone so much...

and love someone so much...

changed

she has changed...

and it hurts and disappoints me to see her become like tat...

wat happened...

i really dunno...

pain

my heart feels so painful...

it hurts so bad...



i miss her....

everything about her...

her smile...

her face....

her voice...

her touch...

her laughter....

everything...



i have no seen her in 7 months already...



i still cant forget her....

i still cant get over her...



moo... i miss you...

utterly sad... utterly disappointed...

im surprised and shocked how much she has changed into a totally different person...

she wasnt like this when we first met...

i dunno if is it the hurt i have inflicted on her that caused her to change...

or the circumstances and situations around her...



i called earlier and this guy answered in hokkien and the background was very noisy...

absolutely uncouth...

totally rude...

i cant imagine the friends she is mixing with now...

and the place she goes to these days...



this incident has convinced me she is no longer the girl i once knew...

or the girl i once loved...

for the girl i once knew and loved is no longer around...



i will be strong....

i will endure the pain...

i will walk out of this shadow....

into the light...



i am utterly sad....

i am utterly disappointed...

2+1

because of 1 friend...

i lost another 2...

over the weekend...



how cheap are friendships these days...

Pretentious Friend

10 years of friendship...

10 years of pretentious friendship...

platonic friendship

it's a bad week...

everyone thinks they know me but they don't...

why am i behaving this way, did anybody wonder why?

no... nobody wonders...

they only blame it on me for things i have done and said...

they never stop and question why it's like that...


i admit i'm not the perfect guy...

but i have my reasons why i'm doing things these way and saying these words...


it hurts to fall out over a 10year friendship over something like this...

but i think it would help me a lot more in the long term without this friendship...