break in...?

there was a 2nd attempted break in yesterday...

xl heard some1 tempering with the garage door...

when she peeked out of the window...

he slammed the window and escaped...


he was no long in sight when i ran out...

not soon after we heard some sounds again...

but still..

i cant catch that guy when i went out to check...



damn derna is sure 1 unsafe street...

break in...

yesterday i had my 1st break in in 3 years...

someone broke into my garage...

luckily there wasnt any valuable inside...

so far... i dun think anything got stolen...



by the point is...

it's still a break in...



xueling said she heard some noises and she peeked out...

and saw a bunch of kids loitering oon our front yard..

she glare at them then she went back to smoke...

wtf..



hope dun have a 2nd time...

sometimes certain stuff just have to happen once...

work work work..

assignemnt is due next week...

seems like have a lot to research...

but no mood....

i just hasnt got the mood to do anything...



i miss home...

i wanna go home...

animosity...

time and circumstances changes a person...

sad but true...

especially when it's someone you care a lot for...



the laughs and fun are not longer there...

instead... animosity is what lingers the two...

sad...

dunno y.. i feel so sad now...

alonely too...

sometimes i wish...

sometimes...

i wish i can do what i wanna do...

express myself the way i wanna express...



but always...

circumstances doenst permit...



i wish...

psychological barrier...

hard as i tried to love her more...

but the psychological barrier prevents me from doing so...



i feel so guilty...

feel so bad...



afraid of committments...

afraid of promises...



am i wasting each others' time...?

i think i am...

Said I Love You (But I Lied) - Michael Bolton

Said I Loved You But I Lied) - Michael Bolton

You are the candle~~~ love's the flame~~~
A fire that burns through wind and rain~~~
Shine your light on this heart of mine~~~
Till the end of time~~~
You came to me like the dawn through the night~~~
Just shinin' like the sun~~~
Out of my dreams and into my life~~~
You are the one, you are the one~~~

Said I loved you but I lied~~~
'Cause this is more than love I feel inside~~~
Said I loved you but I was wrong~~~
'Cause love could never ever feel so strong~~~
Said I loved you but I lied~~~

With all my soul I've tried in vain~~~
How can mere words my heart explain~~~
This taste of heaven so deep so true~~~
I've found in you~~~
So many reasons in so many ways~~~
My life has just begun~~~
Need you forever, I need you to stay~~~
You are the one, you are the one~~~

Said I loved you but I lied~~~
'Cause this is more than love I feel inside~~~
Said I loved you but I was wrong~~~
'Cause love could never ever feel so strong~~~
Said I loved you but I lied~~~

You came to me like the dawn through the night~~~
Just shinin' like the sun~~~
Out of my dreams and into my life~~~
You are the one, you are the one~~~

Said I loved you but I lied~~~
'Cause this is more than love I feel inside~~~
Said I loved you but I was wrong~~~
'Cause love could never ever feel so strong~~~
Said I loved you but I lied~~~

Said I loved you but I've lied~~~
But this is more than love I feel inside~~~
Said I loved you....But I lied~~~

. . . . .

hurt...

it was a bad fight...

verbal that is...

i gonna admit it hurted me badly...

so deeply...

not worth it...

sometimes...

people just need something to shock them to make them realize...

realize that certain stuff are just not worth thinkin about it...



move on...

moving on...

moved on...?

rejected...

people always say good things come in pairs...

did they mention bad things come in paris too...?



Helen replied me just now regarding my application for scholarship...

she said i was too late in applying for the scholarship and it only applies to undergrads going into 4th years from the 3rd...



haiz...

how come like tat...

go n ask people have scholarship or not they all say dun have...

i try to find oso cannot find...

when i dun wanna find then managed to let me stumble upon it...



haiz...

:(

double impact...

:(

scholarship...

emailed helen khoo from ura the other day regarding ura scholarship...

finally she replied today...

asked if im doing my final year...

wonder if i will get it...




if i do...

sure gonna reduce the financial burden on my family and me...



please let me get it...



please please please...

beautiful...

the stars were beautiful...

twinkling beautiful in the nite sky...

like diamonds...

nv fails to remind me of kelly...




especially the time spent with kelly somewhere along great ocean road...

we were driving back to the hotel when we pulled over at some cliff and admired the stars...



beautiful...



these memories...

were beautiful too...

precious...



miss...

dream...

i dream dream dream of u again...

home sweet home...?

miss home...

lonely...

on the plane today...

feeling was fucked up...

ugly stewardess make it worse...

and they were play paul cardiff...

wtf...

word twister...

some people just love to twist others' words in order to make themselves look good...

or sometimes they make others look bad in order to make themselves stand out...



wtf...

serious... if u r jealous just admit it...

me being on closer terms with some1 else doesn't validify your grounds to slander me...



saying things i didnt say to other only reflect badly on yourself...

especially if the other party knows me 10 times better than u do...

in the end... it only make others realize how unrealiable your words are...



wat getting together... wat buy house... wat have kids...

wat the fuck...?!?!?!

all the women on earth can die and still...

you DONT STAND A CHANCE...

14th Feb 2006

happy valentine's day...

mahogany -> blonde -> cool khaki...

had a dye craze recently...

been doin my hair...

changing colours...

from mahogany -> blonde -> cool khaki...

cool colour...

but there is a price to pay...

my hair is fricking damaged n dry...

and yes...

not goin for treatment...

coz no money... no time...

diy conditioner will do...

worse comes to worse...

i'll shave bald...

evil virus...

sick sick sick...

finally i succumb to the evil virus...

now i down with a bad cold...

damn it...

chinese new year...

gonna say i really enjoy myself this cny...

had a week off...

shiok...

busy enjoying... eating... slacking...

put on a few pounds though...

but it's ok... coz i know im gonna lose them when im back in newcastle...